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October 14, 2009  
08:25am 14/10/2009
 
 
independentlulu
After A While

After a while, you learn the subtle difference
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't mean security,


And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts.
And presents aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats
With the grace of God, not the grief of a child,


And you learn to build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans,
And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight
And after a while you learn


That even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.


And you learn that you really can endure ...
That you really are strong
And you really do have worth
And you learn and learn ...
And with every goodbye, you learn.


By Veronica A. Shoffstall

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I needed a little bit of inspiration today.  I am struggling a bit with my value to the greater good of society and my existence as a whole.  Ya know, small potatoes stuff.
 
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October 7, 2009  
10:40am 07/10/2009
 
 
independentlulu

Her love is like an island
in life's ocean, vast and wide.
A peaceful, quiet shelter
from the wind, the rain, the tide.
'Tis bound on the north by Hope,
By Patience on the West,
By Tender Counsel on the South
And on the East, by Rest.
Above it, like a beacon light, shine Faith, and Truth, and Prayer;
And through the changing scenes of life
I find a haven there.

- Author Unknown
 
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August 20, 2009  
11:49am 20/08/2009
 
 
independentlulu
Today I am 31. 

Aging is slowly starting to hit me.  The lack of colagen in my skin, the extra padding on my ass and the fact that it has flattened out much to my dismay (where oh where did my ghetto booty go?)  I have pronounced laugh lines that are getting deeper which each passing day.  I figure this is okay though as it means that I smile and laugh often, that I live a life I enjoy.  Still they don't seem to fit.  When I look in the mirror I see a child with the beginnings of wrinkles and it feels so foreign to me. 

I have a mortgage and own a life insurance policy, pay medical expenses, and have a 403(b) retirement account.  These are all things that a grown up would have.  This has yet to sink in.  I still feel like a child internally but feel myself maturing each day.  Certainly not enough to have so many grown up responsibilites!  Like my friend Val recently said........I am waiting for the gestapo to hunt me down and reveal my true age to everyone.  That this was all a hoax, this growing up thing. 

Before I know it I am going to middle aged.  Half of my life will have passed me by.  I have done so much living and hope that instead of regrets I will have visions and plans for the future.  I may have been weighed down with responsibility for most of my life but there will be a time when I will have paid my dues and when life will afford me a few luxuries that I would not have been able to appreciate had I had them when I was younger. 

Today is a good day and I just ate a piece of carrot cake for lunch.  It has carrots and pineapple and a cream cheese frosting, plus cake.  See, I ate 3 of the 4 food groups!
tags: birthday
 
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August 4, 2009  
02:46pm 04/08/2009
 
 
independentlulu
I just wish "friends" would just have the balls to say I've got other plans or visiting you isn't a priority or whatever.

Why say yes to an invite then give me vague answers when I try to confirm plans this morning (via facebook)for this afternoon then ignore my two phone calls today to see what the hell is up? She's from out of town and I haven't seen her in two years. Obviously seeing me isn't that important and that's okay but I don't like being treated like this. We aren't super close so not seing her isn't going to hurt my feelings nor would a truthful response.

Mmmmmk. I feel a bit better.


Also, LJ sucks.  I tried numerous times to add on to my entry yesterday and the edit page kept reverting back to the original post (three edits ago) and then when I tried to update it would error out.  I hate you LJ.  It was a therapeutic post for me and I would have loved to have the in the moment words forever.  Now the moment is gone and so are my edits!
tags: friends
 
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May 18, 2009  
09:42am 18/05/2009
 
 
independentlulu
It's official.........we got the house!  Now onto inspection and financing.  Wish us luck, it isn't ours until we get the keys!
tags: houses
 
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making an offer  
01:03pm 12/05/2009
 
 
independentlulu

Tomorrow we sign our offer on this house. Wish us luck!


 

see the inside! )
tags: houses
 
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April 28, 2009  
01:34pm 28/04/2009
 
 
independentlulu
Putting myself back on the list:

tanning package to get a base tan for trip to Cali in June
manicure/pedicure
a dress from Ann Taylor - not the thrift store but a brand new dress

Never ever do I ever do those things for myself and I did all three within 4 days!
tags: beauty
 
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April 17, 2009  
08:30am 17/04/2009
 
 
independentlulu


This morning I went to QFC before work to buy a card and to grab something to eat.  The card is for Damian who called me after his track meet last night very excited that he had broken the school record in shot put and brought home 1st place.  I figured I would drop it in the mail for him and he'll get it early next week. 

I was also starving.  I like thos Don Miguel burritos that you find in the deli so I went to grab one of those.  FROZEN!  I was pretty pissed.  So I went to Starbucks for a turkey bacon sandwich and a tall brewed coffee.  You know when it is obvious that somebody took a sleeping pill the night before and did not allow for the full 8 hours of sleep required?  Yeah, the cashier was having one of those days.  She spilled coffee all over her hands as she was pouring it, then forgot my sandwich.  Blah.  Then I was hopping out of the car at work and I spilled coffee on me.  I think she didn't put the lid on very tight.  :(

I am now eating the cream cheese frosting off a carrot cake.  Not the cake, just the frosting and the walnuts that are smooshed into it. 

 

tags: daily, damian, food
 
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April 15, 2009  
09:30am 15/04/2009
 
 
independentlulu
Planning is in full force for our vacation to Long Beach/LA/Santa Barbara in late June.  I'm getting so excited!  I have purchased tickets to see the Mariners play at Dodger Stadium.   How cool is that?  We get to see our own team play an away game.  It would be even better if they didn't suck donkey balls by the time June rolls around.  Right now it is feeling pretty good to be a Mariner's fan.

Also going to work buy tickets to Magic Mountain this weekend and purchase a hotel room for Santa Barbara for one night. 

Tickets are purchased, rental car is taken care of. 

I need to find an appropriate gift for Kip's aunt and uncle who are graciously allowing us to stay in their home while we are there.  I thinking something indicitave of Seattle but I'm not sure yet.  Open to suggestions!  Has to travel well on a plane so something pretty and breakable isn't going to work.
tags: vacation
 
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April 10, 2009  
09:22am 10/04/2009
 
 
independentlulu


2 years

It really isn't that long when you can see yourself  old with someone but today is the day we got hitched 2 years ago in Vegas by a minister named Dr. Love at the Little White Wedding Chapel.

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Dominick took a couple of pics in our bedroom today.  I will try to remember to upload.  I'd like to do this every year so I can see us as we grow old together.

Kip brought me two beautiful red roses to work today.  He is so sweet.
 

 
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